ayu aman shah: June 2016

its been a year....
seriously,time fly too fast....
Few people ask me,how it feel after a year of divorce...
What can i say,i feel good???i feel horrible?i feel sad?what was my feel?
Truthly,till now,i still doubt my feel...sometime i feel bad because i fail to protect our marriage...
the worsen is my babies have to experience it at young age..mishka only 8months when it happen..
But the other side me feel relieve...
i now, after a year,happily living my small slow life with my babies...ohh,i have no problem with the other side family..
afterall,they still part of my life, they still family for my babies...
i couldnt make them apart...
People who know me,know how i'm struggle to live my life after divorce.at age 29,mother of 2 and back single after 10years of relationship...
Truthly,not so much change in my life except the title..
i still mama to nia n mishka,my ultimate lover...
i have a job,i have a house,i have some saving,live a life is not a problem anymore..thank to ex for lessen my burden.i don't have to carry all the hatred and all the sin along with me..the sin bcoz of hating him...i now doesnt have to care for extra heart.reach home 5 minute after clock out,cook dinner for my baby,they have their dinner before 8pm..
What more a working mom want other then more time with their babies and i have that....thank to u,now i live my life to the fullest....
For those who asking,you live the life you are given,but you can make it worth when you live your life the way you want it...
Ohhh,dont ask me about men,i have only one man now,Harith Mishka Darius...
who doesn't love this cheeky boy ???

and my forever princess wannabe???

its seem incomplete but we live to completed each other...they still have their father,well..we separated virtually,not their father is passing away...

its happily when you are 2,its meaningfull when you are 3,its great when you are 4 but its nothing wrong being 3 back....

and we good to be 3....